I've changed my mind. Devious, backstabbing behaviour does not a nice person make, and my stupidity was in believing, if only for a short time, the journal that I have now deleted.
Coldly furious would describe me well about now, and has since last night. And will for some time to come.
Maybe its time I find the old me again. She made an appearance last night when I read his email, and produced the cold fury I've felt since. I keep repeating the same words because I don't know how else to describe it. It's not hot anger. It's cold. I've gone cold.
Maybe someday soon I will learn to smile wholeheartedly at my boys again. My brothers do not deserve a sister who can't produce a decent smile at their antics or sweet cuddles.
And my car deserves a better owner. She's filled with junk because I never seem to find the time to go clean her out.
I've taken my necklace off, he bought the chain. I never saw him as capable of such nasty behaviour, but I guess everyone is. That's why I'll never go into another relationship again. I can't be bothered dealing with all that shit. I'm not the sort of person that does well in relationships.
I'm going to get a box tonight after I get home from work, and put all the things I still have that he gave me in it. Then I'll put them on top of my wardrobe and not look at them for years. Sounds good to me.
I used to laugh and say he was the best relationship I've had (since I turned 20 anyway) but he's definitely the worst ex. Vit may ignore me when he doesn't want to talk, but he doesn't backstab.
Don't worry, everyone, I'm not about to throw myself back at Vit, either. I'm never entering another relationship again.